Friday, 22 October 2010

Things I am grateful for this week

  • Having work; earning money to put towards things I want to enrich my life with (no not clothes!)
  • Spending time with my mum and gran (who is 82 tomorrow!)
  • Having a good sleep every night.
  • Going running and doing some exercise this morning.
  • Being in contact with loved ones.
  • Having a lovely meal at Helen's last night.
  • Being able to listen to my inner self and try and work out my future/goals/feelings.
  • Sunshine.
  • Being alive, having running water and nice food.
  • Having a family and people in London who love me.
  • Making a plan to go to South America and finding some great projects to go to whilst I'm there.
  • Listening to some new Eastern European music that I like.
  • The amazing feeling I had on Monday night after work.
  • My hope.
  • Having a good recruitment agency.
  • I wrote my blog!
  • I signed up for singing lessons!
  • Writing my ultimate future plan.
  • Putting some more money away for travelling (£150).
  • Hearing from Hoss and knowing that he was OK.
  • Smiling, laughing, knowing that bad feelings will pass.
  • That I have sight, smell and sound in my life....
  • Knowing I can dance! :)

Be the change you want to see in the world

An interesting Gandhi quote. I am going to think about it; the changes that I would really like to see in the world:
  1. Less greed; for money, food and possessions.
  2. More love; for family; for friends; for strangers.
  3. Spirituality; I don't mean join a cult or religion, but for people to be better in tune with themselves, not just what the media or others think they should be like.
  4. Eating for the soul; no more junk food, eating good nutrition to help the body run better. Better resourcing of food; farms and food from your own country; growing your own. Eating little meat and fish so we do not ruin our resources.
  5. More time; to do things we love; cook, dance, sing, write, play music, work (if that's what you truly love) spending time with loved ones. What is the point of having money and spending it on crap we don't need and leave behind (which takes up valuable space in rubbish tips) when we die?
  6. Less fear.
  7. More compassion.
  8. Taking responsibility for our actions; trying to be honest with ourselves and others.
  9. More recycling (not throwing away clothes with minor faults, buying from charity shops, re-fashioning items, not having to update kitchens every year just to stay in fashion); less manufacturing.
  10. Less use of chemicals in our day to day lives; natural body wash, shampoo, deodorant etc.
  11. Better use of natural energy sources.
  12. More positive news stories.
  13. Less of everything revolving around money and more revolving around the above and living a fulfilling life.

The next question is how can I achieve the above?

  1. I am attempting the less greed point now; I am trying not to buy too many new clothes/possessions, and if I do they are either very cheap or from charity shops; I am going to fix my old winter coats and not buy an expensive new one. I am definitely less greedy for food than what I have been in the past.
  2. I am also trying this; I have given more time to my mum and also been working and planning to work volunteering for charities; I think I could improve on this more, so am going to have a think.
  3. Spirituality; again, I am trying, this isn't exactly a new thing for me, but I am sure it will be something I learn over a life time as opposed to over night, I think part of this whole exercise is good for my soul. I have been reading a book on Buddhism too.
  4. I have always wanted to grow my own veg, but have never got round to it; even though my mum does and I eat hers!! As I am going travelling next summer I can't really start planting food for when I won't be here, but its definitely up there for the future. As for not eating junk; I do try to practise and think I do rather well at this point! I decided last night that I am going to try and be a vegetarian most of the time (unless meat is specially cooked for me in which case I will eat it).
  5. I have signed up for a singing course (10 weeks, starts next Thursday) and am spending more time reading, finding music I like and writing this blog....that all counts I think! Also the volunteering counts :).
  6. Less fear; this is a hard one; another good quote from Gandhi; "There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever". Well I don't really believe in God, so although I do not fully agree with this quote, a lot of fear is just in your mind, positive thinking should help me with this one; or my mum's mantra; "there is no such thing as fear, I have no fear".
  7. ?
  8. Honesty; its very hard to be honest with yourself; but I am trying. Honesty with others; hard also, but this is not something I can learn overnight.
  9. I don't currently manufacture anything, but if I do I am hoping it will be environmentally friendly. As I already mentioned I get things from charity shops, am going to start fixing my clothes and hopefully I will re-fashion some too (this has been on my to do list for a long time!).
  10. I did start doing this one; but seeing as I am low on funds at the moment and saving to go away I bought my washing stuff from the pound shop, I think I will either try to find some stuff that is cheaper, or buy it in bulk, or try and make my own? Other options; stop washing.
  11. I should really get a bike, and think about finding a energy company that uses natural resources. Maybe I could look into getting a grant for my mums house for solar panels.
  12. Hmmmm......write my own news column?
  13. As all above, I am trying to do this; my hardest feat at the moment is getting used to solidarity which I am getting better at, but crave other peoples attention/cuddles a lot. Hopefully this will come in time and when my self esteem improves.

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Late night coffee

I had another brilliant weekend just gone, I went for a sushi dinner and then to see a couple bands in Brixton on Friday night at the Crypt below St Matthews Church, Saturday I went and helped my friend Charlie with some dressmaking and then in the evening went to see Despicable Me in 3D (that rhymes) at Streatham Odeon; not the best ever film I have ever seen....but pretty mood enhancing and great in 3D...I give it 5 out of 5 stars, well written, has it's funny (and predictable) bits but all in all not a bad film.

After the film I went to a bar on Streatham High St that serves late night coffee and cake (it's also a wine bar)..I had chocolate fondant with chocolate ice cream, it was scrumptious and great to be able to go somewhere so late at night that catered for the non-drinker...although if I was with friends who were pissed I'm not sure I would have enjoyed it so much. Cat and I had a laugh...and the bar man was cute.

Sunday morning I went to meet a friend, Lucy in Kings Rd, drank coffee had a fun time and then went to lush and bought myself some face cream and a face mask (much to my dismay I got beautiful skin envy of someone I met that morning!), in the afternoon I got the bus to Putney (it was a great journey; sunshine, Buddhist book, photo taking, nice people I didn't know talking to me...) to see Cat, our friend Alice cooked a wonderful duck, beetroot and goats cheese salad for lunch and then we went round to another friends house to start making costumes for a party this coming Saturday....I'm going to be a Unicorn, other's were making fairy, sheep and elf costumes.

This week I am working on reception at for an investment company in Bank, and even though Bank is one station closer than where I worked last takes me longer to get here. I don't know how, don't ask, confuzzled is I. Plus points about this job are is it's a bit busier than the last reception covers I have been doing so I am not bored, the offices are amazingly beautiful and have great views, the people are very friendly, I get my lunch paid for (up to £10 value), the hours are longer so I'll get paid more at the end of the week!

I cooked a tasty dinner for my mum and Richard (new lodger at my mums house) last night; crispy garlic chicken thighs with roasted vegetables, asparagus, mashed potatoes and a yummy balsamic vinegar gravy.....YUM.

Tonight mum and I are taking my gran for a sushi dinner as it is her birthday coming up this weekend (I think she'll be 80 something?). From tomorrow night I am busy all up until Sunday night...when I plan to prep myself for a recruitment agency interview on Monday and fingers crossed a week of volunteering with the London Wildlife Trust.

Things I am grateful for over the past week; being able to go and see a really good band, I had a wicked time! Seeing my dear friends, whom I love. Spending some quality time with my mum and helping her to create her certificate. Reading the book on Buddhism and meditating every night so far. Having work. Not being ill. Getting my lunch paid for. Getting my to-do list done.

What I have achieved recently; putting more money for travelling next year into my savings account, finding temp work quickly after quitting my last job, quitting my last job and getting rid of the stress caused by it! Eating healthy, 7 weeks of no drinking alcohol, volunteering for the LWF.

Monday, 11 October 2010


I know I haven't been around for a while, but now I've come into a bit of spare time hopefully I'll be updating a lot more often. A quick overview of my life recently;

Aaron and I split up, I got paid to leave my job (my boss and I weren't getting on very well, plus I was starting to look for a new job), I moved out of the flat and back into my mums, taken up taking and editing photos (mostly of the natural world), volunteering at the London Wildlife Trust, and temping to keep myself going. Am I happy? Yes and no (I have up and down days like everyone), but I am definitely less stressed and have had time to really think about my life and try to bring joy into it.

This is my seventh week of not drinking alcohol, I feel good...and dare I say even a little proud. I had a great weekend, yes - without alcohol! Friday night I went to the Edinboro Castle in Camden for a friends birthday - they have great outside booths with heating, fairy lights and enough seats for about 12 people. Then onto Hootanannys in Brixton; I unfortunately turned up to late to see the band but had a great dance to reggae and ska, it put a great big smile on my face and I decided that I might go back there every Friday to have a uplifting dance.

Saturday we all went to a Colombian restaurant in Brixton market; it was fan-tas-tic! The meal we had was something like this (fingers crossed the link works) although the main ingredient in our meal was chicken as opposed to beef; all that food (soup and main chicken meal including plantain, rice, salad and potatoes which not even a grown man could finish) was £8.00!! And, they had my favourite; freshly squeezed passion fruit juice, about a pint and a half for £3.00!! I'll definitely be going back there. In the evening I went to another friends birthday, a pizza party at his home, I had a great time and met some new people. After the party I took a short detour to the Queens Head pub, on Stockwell Road, Brixton, there was amazing gypsy music playing so I had a coke and a wee dance before being whisked away in a taxi (I only slept for about 5 hours on Friday).

On Sunday I didn't get up to much, I cooked a roast dinner with the bestest roast potatoes ever! And started to look into some reggae/ska/dance hall music to download, but unfortunately couldn't find much; I tabbed some on YouTube and a friend will be sending me some via post. I also sent out an email to friends to try and set up some jamming sessions/a band as Callum and I decided on Friday night that we all listen to and love music so much that maybe we should do something more than just listen to it and get wasted; we could make it! I'm signing up for some singing lessons to start on Tuesday evenings.

I've also had time to sit down and work out my 5 year plan, my finances and do some reading about South America. My plan is as below:

  • Now - March/April 2011; save, save, save, research South America, learn Spanish, do singing lessons, do some jamming, look after myself, voluneer for the LWT.
  • March/April 2011; go travelling for 5 - 6 months in South America.
  • September 2011; start an access to higher education course (2 evenings a week for a year) whilst working and saving money/volunteering.
  • Summer 2012; go travelling in Asia/India.
  • September 2012; start International Development degree at Sussex Uni.

This means that it will be 2015 (and I will be 30!!!!) when this is all done; and maybe I'll change my mind along the way but I am pretty impressed and statisfied with my plan.